12:10am (Thu) — In 22 days my life will be changed forever. WHAT am I scared of the most? — I’m scared that I won’t like it — being married, that is. But, the FACT is, it’s too late.

Dear God for Sara’s sake, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do whatever it takes in me to change me! — “HOW desperate are you, Steve? How is your desperation demonstrated — by your pitiful remorse at times when it’s too late?”

“Steve, TRUST ME, TRUST ME, TRUST ME! Believe that I CAN change you. YOU know and Satan is constantly reminding you of your failure. You ARE a miserable failure. But, when you are weak, then *I* am strong.

She wants to be wanted. That’s what love is for her. DESIRE!!! “Sara, I WANT you! I WANT you!”