12:08am (Mon) — This weekend was a little tough on Sara. Her ex-fiance [Keith] called yesterday and they talked for a bit. Apparently he found out she and I were engaged on some website that she had signed up for a while back. He had just broken up with another girl and wanted to know if there was ANY way they might have a chance [again]. The guy sounded desperate — but what I guess I don’t fully understand is how Sara is so broken up by his calling. I can understand how it could dredge up old emotion — but, I can’t imagine more than just a sinking feeling in the pit of your gut. I must confess, sometimes I feel as though Sara feigns sorrow or puts on a “damsel in distress” act in order to extract sympathy from me. I’m sure that SOUNDS horrible and maybe there’s some truth in it, but I think what Hal would probably say is that that is a sign that I’m not giving her enough love and attention otherwise. But, when such things happen, my immediate reaction is to act in totally the opposite way than what she wants out of me. She’s always LOOKING at me — ever-staring. I just don’t know what that’s about. It was the same with Val. It can be very unnerving.

Anyway, so this guy, Keith, sound like a real piece of work. Sara had a long conversation with him that afternoon – he sounded real conciliatory and wished her well. But, then left a couple messages later — he’s been pining after her for a long time, it sounds like.

Aside from the blatant insecurity and immaturity, there’s something about him I envy — his obvious deep feelings for Sara.